Complicated Melody

I am a woman. I am a mother. I lost my son in the battle of Congenital Heart Defect but I also feel I have won. I won because I felt the compassion, humanity, and love at its GREATEST depths. I felt them from my family, friends, and even strangers. I have witnessed God shower blessings after blessings, miracles after miracles. I am forever indebted of all your goodness. I have so much love in me! I have so much passion! I learned so much, went through a lot, and have survived. I'm still sane! :) I feel a very strong conviction inside me to help parents, families, and individuals who are on the same shoes as I was. If you are on my shoes now, start your read from this post. Yes! Until my last breath, I will do as much as I can to spread awareness, share my story, encourage, empower, give hope, and assist. This is how I celebrate my baby Nate's life. 

I have learned that you can never really force things to happen to you. You cannot force people to love you, like you… cannot speed up events or to happen the way you like it. You cannot really force things to go your way. You can only influence.  Events just unfold and you are in the front seat to witness. You can either hate it or love it… I, on the other hand, choose to love. I choose to set my sail, ride with the wind, and prepare myself to the beautiful surprises life offers. Choosing love is a constant decision.

I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same things too, So we're really not that different, me and you.

This blog is part of me that I share with you... my thoughts, favorite past time, and things that I love.

If you ask me what life is, I'd say, "If life was a song, it would be a complicated melody."

Share your story with me. I would like to hear your opinion. Keep in touch with me in twitter,!/cutieyanyan.


Know my baby Nate's store by reading ZakNate: The Story of Love
Facebook page: Get Better Nate
Our Non-Profit Organization with the rest of the heart families, Let It Echo and Let It Echo Heart Families