I am a mother. I lost my son in the battle of Congenital Heart Defect. It was the most difficult 11 months of my life. I have lost but I also feel I have won. I won because I felt the compassion, humanity, and love at its GREATEST depths. I felt them from my family, friends, and even strangers. I have witnessed God shower blessings after blessings, miracles after miracles. I am forever indebted of all your goodness. I have so much love in me! I have so much passion! I learned so much, went through a lot, and have survived. I'm still sane! :) I feel a very strong conviction inside me to help parents, families, and individuals who are on the same shoes as I was. If you are on my shoes now, start your read from this post. Until my last breath, I will do as much as I can to spread awareness, share my story, encourage, empower, give hope, and assist. This is how I celebrate my baby Nate's life. 

I learned the hard way that you can never really force things to happen to you. You cannot force people to love you, like you… cannot speed up events or to happen the way you like it. You cannot force things to go your way. You can only influence.  Events just unfold and you are in the front seat to witness. You can either hate it or love it… I, on the other hand, choose to love. I choose to set my sail, ride with the wind, and prepare myself to the beautiful surprises life offers. Choosing love (and gratefulness) is a constant decision. It's a constant struggle.

I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same things too, So we're really not that different, me and you.

This blog is a step forward to moving on. I kept my sanity even after all I've been through because I took a step one day at a time.

If you ask me what life is, I'd say, "If life was a song, it would be a complicated melody."

Share your story with me. I would like to hear your opinion. You may also keep in touch in twitter, https://twitter.com/#!/cutieyanyan.