This is the first time I've posted picture of my love Nate in his resting place. I think I will never get over the feeling of loss. Time just helps me get used to dealing with it. That's life. We can't do anything about it. I continually pray for strength and healing. I pray that no other parent will ever experience what I've been through. This is the reason I put so much energy helping kids with congenital heart defects. No parent should ever lose the battle of congenital heart defect without putting a fight.
This year's All Saints' Day, we are blessed to have a long 4-day weekend. We decided to have a picnic at memorial park where Nate is. I was able to stay at the park the whole day and keeping at peace about it. I was also able to answer questions and talk about him without crying to passers by and strangers who asked about him. Time, indeed, added help.
Picnic was relaxing. It was a good break from the hectic work days. Check out our delicious food. You know how water is so difficult when in picnic? Well, we found this plastic gloves that makes washing your hand no longer a need. You can be assured your fingers will not smell like food after eating. That amazing! I'm glad I found this at the grocery store while just looking around.
Picnic started around 9am and ended 11:30 in the evening. The view of the sky at night was great. So much space and so much freedom. I feel so little in the world. Such a humbling experience. I was also able to sleep for a few hours under the wonders of the stars. I enjoyed my day with my real love.